poems of yester-year

Here are some poems from back in elem and middle school... through up till a year ago. I think.

If I Could See Into His Soul
I wonder what I'd see
If I could see into his soul
Would I have to look into his eyes
Just to see the times he cries?
Or would his feelings just unfold
All the stories so untold
Or would the secrets just keep to themselves
In the corners or on the shelves
I wonder what I'd see
If I could see into his soul

Poison
The blood the gore
Oh what a bore!
"Why not poison?" I ask
"There's much less violence, except for the task."
The victim of the poison is usually in bed
And the the stuff starts activating
The victim becomes dead.

Eyes of a Stranger
I looked into
the eyes of a stranger
Never thinking
Or realizing the danger
Just their eyes
Showed the times
They had cried
In the eyes of a stranger.

Looking ino
The eyes of a no one.
Not really searching
But finding a someone
Their loves and losses
Steadily flowed out
They'd been hurt many times
No doubt.
In the eyes of a no one.

I felt the touch of an angel
Oh so foriegn
And yet so familiar
Just one touch and
I felt all His love
That sweet messenger
from above
In the touch of an angel.

I looked into myself
For an answer
I knew my doubt
Was a fatal cancer
I learned I needed to
Love myself
Before anybody else.
Looking into my soul.

Dreams
Everyone wants a good dream
Nobody wants a bad one
I long for those girlish fantasies
The nightmares are unwelcome
The special ones, I hold dear
For they are so very few
But I always cry when they end
It's what I always do.
For one time my dream fulfilled
My every single wish
And then I woke to reality
Leaving behind that bliss.
My hopes had been raised and crushed.
The real world was shockingly cold
I had lost the dream I'd loved.
So now I do not care
If my dreams are good or bad.
For I know now the harsh truth...
there is no loved fantasy to be had.



that's all for now.

whooville

Glitter floating through the sky
I almost can't believe my eyes
It lands on doors, and trees and dirt
I catch it on my face, my shirt
Like tiny kisses upon my skin.
A wholesome time that I am in.

Oh to be a flake of snow
Never knowing where I'll go
To flit and float through chilly skies
No thoughts of people, scared of lies
To be a fully simple thing
To see the happiness I bring.

It's scorned and hated half the time
It doesn't fit into our lives
We blame it for our frosted cheeks
We pray that it will leave for weeks
But when the clouds melt from the scene
We realize what the snowfall means.

Oh to see a flake of snow!
She gets it now! She wants to know!
When are they coming back to play?
I'll wait a week, no! Just a day!
The streets are slick, the ground is hard
Oh snow! Come back! You've gone too far!

The windows melt wet pools of ice
You hear the bird, you see the mice
The temperature makes a raise
The weather begs you for its praise
At last! the snow falls once again
To bring the happiness of men.

Oh I love the sight of snow
At first it's high, and then it's low.
Large fluffy flakes clump up and melt
Reminding me of things I've felt
You have to leave, I understand
But don't forget our snowy land!

january

sad to say the sun is cold
the ice reflects its heat
and the then earth gets...none.

sad to say the room is far
the hall keeps getting longer
water drips from boots on his way.

sad to say i never knew
studying never did help
brain cells dry up from lack of use

sad to say the heart wandered
he didn't give it much of a choice
and now the heart pulls back in shame.

good to know the clouds are back
the warmth cannot escape
and the earth can turn again.

it

it hides
it haunts
it rears its head
i cry
i want
i wish i were dead
but how
and when
will it dissappear
today?
no way.
i'll wait one more year
it hides
it waits
it tries to be nice
i fall
go blind
no love in my eyes
i look
and smile
he fell in my pit
one day
he'll see
it's not me, it's it.
she prods
she digs
takes glee in my cries
i fight
i scratch
i hate when she pries.
"you'll see
the light,
you now can move on."
she's wrong
i'm right
it won't take too long
it lies
it hates
deceiving my heart
oh man
poor man
won't know where to start
it says
i'm wrong
it speaks honestly
hard heart
cold hands
shake too quietly.
i know
i'm scared.
i know it's not fun
i just
don't know
if i'll find that one
and if
he shows
will it let him pass?
will i
step back
and pray it will last?
it shows
it's face
he steps back and... grins?
he stops
and squints
he's destined to win
i hide
my fear
which he can dispell
i know
that love
i know it too well.

little mermaid

I gave it all just for your love
My family, my home, to live above
And yet you turn your back on me
I cannot speak, but can’t you see?
You are the only one for me
We are a match made perfectly
I came up here to live above
I gave it all to get your love.

Sun burns my skin
Wind chills my bones
But your smile warms my heart
The voices are strange
The bodies are stranger
Doing things I can’t even start
I can’t live without you
So I come to live with you
In a land I just can’t fit in
But you find my poor body
Dried out on the beach
This is where we begin

I gave it all just for your love
My family, my home, to live above
And yet you turn your back on me
I cannot speak, but can’t you see?
You are the only one for me
We are a match made perfectly
I came up here to live above
I gave it all to get your love.

You taught me to read
I don’t seem to learn
I don’t care, as long as you’re near
I listen to songs
But can’t sing along
I have words that you’ll never hear.
I take timid steps
And you hold my hand
Those tingles run down through my toes
You tell me the story
About me of course
But that fact, nobody knows

Yes I saved you that night
I gave you your life
But that moment you jump started mine
I turned away from the sea
But you can’t seem to see me.
You forever remain to be blind.

I gave it all just for your love
My family, my home, to live above
And yet you turn your back on me
I cannot speak, but can’t you see?
You are the only one for me
We are a match made perfectly
I came up here to live above
I gave it all to get your love.

One more girl, you say
Then after that,
If she’s not right, you will pick me
A sweet kiss on my mouth
Makes my whole soul arouse
One more day! Then how happy we’ll be!

I see her brown eyes
And long flowing hair
When your face lights up, then I know
She looks just like…me
And what else should you think?
Those feelings I finally show.
I watched as you kissed
Your marital bliss
My body fades with the night
My broken down heart
Cries tears in the dawn
I can’t believe this is right.

I came up here to live above
I gave it all to get your love.

decide

I look to myself for the answer
But my logic, my reason, it flees
If I go left or right
It's like day and like night
Is there really just one choice for me?

Who's to say that the path I will choose
Is the one that I'll stay on for life?
I know there'll be forks and
detours and changes
So is choosing right now even wise?

But I feel a strong urging
to plan and devise
I need a direction to follow!
Will someone, oh someone, please point out the way
To get through a year of tomorrows?

And I look to myself for the answer
But my logic, my reason, it flees.
If I go left or right
It's like day and like night
Is there really just one choice for me?

On the map I have charted a course
For each way that pulls at my heart
If I do what I want
I just might be happy
But are my desires the best?

So I think, and I ponder
Am I destined to wander?
Please tell me that I'll find my way home!
And then, like a lightswitch
I realize my problem
Was it really as simple as that?

Yes I looked to myself for the answer
My logic, my reason, remained
If I go left or right,
it's my choice, my right,
I can make the decision for me.

With my choice finally made
My heart sings a song
Direction! A plan! Hooray!
Every path could be fine
Just make up your mind!
And the rest will just fall into place.

there they are

there they are, the two of them
standing in battle position
i watch as they fight
and i know who will win...

neither.