Friday, April 24, 2009

four months

I remember when I met you,
How you fit into your jeans
With one leg across the other
You were not what you seemed.
You brushed your bangs aside.
Each time I felt a pange.
But I couldn't keepy my mouth shut
So you surely saw my change.

You saw me, you knew me, and you tried to let me in.
I saw you, ignored you, I just knew I couldn't win.
I couldn't hide who I was, I couldn't stop the chase
You gave me space and room to grow, I cringed to see your face.

I remember when I met you,
The real you, the first time.
Your body was invisible
It was your spirit's turn to shine
Gratitude filled my heart
As you treated me with love
I saw you then as He sees you
My view from up above.

You saw me, didn't know me, and began to shut me out.
I saw you, fought for you, did all but scream and shout!
You tried to make the choice for me, but I could not accept.
We talked it out and started again, this was our third attempt.

I remember when I met you,
When you first showed me that side.
I wasn't shocked, but more suprised
The gap was small, not wide.
I hadn't shown my passion,
Kept my secrets in my heart.
You called this point our end.
I saw it as our start.

You saw me, I saw you, our passions found each other
I flourished in our friendship; my spirit wasn't smothered.
We didn't hide who we were, there was no more a chase.
But we see that now is not the time, nor is here the place.

I hope that when I see you
In another place and time
You'll see the changes in me.
I'll see you've redrawn lines.
You'll talk to me with love, respect,
And gently kiss my cheek.
You'll wipe my tears off with your thumb
You'll make my knees grow weak.

Beyond that point, I dare not dream
My heart and mind may turn.
I love you now and always will
But we have so much to learn.
I have to trust myself and God
And be here when you need
That we will always be good friends,
For that alone I plead.

Wednesday, April 1, 2009

Kayla-Anne

I know I should be happy
But why can’t I be sad?
I’ll miss you with my whole heart
Is loving you that bad?
But I want you to be happy
To find joy in every way
So I’ll keep my tears behind my eyes
We’ll meet again someday.

The ice and the snow
Fly past my window
Your voice is steady and calm
I cannot believe
That you even feel pride
When you see what I do and I say.

We are so different you and me
You see the world unusually
Though I cannot say these things I feel
I know this love is very real.
To see you cry rips at my soul
To see you cry rips at my soul.

The ice and the snow
Fly past my window
Your voice is steady and calm
I cannot believe
That you even feel pride
When you see what I do and I say.

Your talent always awes me
Your love is wonder inspiring
But I used to pull you down
With a sneer, a jeer, a frown.
I didn’t know how to show my love
I didn’t know how to show my love.

But in spite of that
You pulled me back
And held me in your care
I cried and screamed
There was not one thing
Till you showed me you were there.
Don’t leave me now!
I don’t know how!
I can’t make it on my own!
You keep me strong
And moving on!
I’m not quite whole without you!

Through the ice and the snow
You tell me you love me
That my actions and love impress you
“Don’t forget who you are, and what you can do,”
You declare in the cold winter air.

As my sister, I love you
As my example, I live by you
As my best friend… I need you.