silent

silently creeping and crying my tears
hiding my feelings and love all these years
i try to hold back and pretend i don't care
you act like it's nothing, you're not really there
so what is okay? and what is alright?
to smile in the day, and cry in the night?
i want to be me and say all i can
but not if it truly upsets my man.

i've learned to rebound, to mean what i say
maybe too much, but that's my price to pay
it went on too long
i stopped and moved on
now i'm me without apology.

words shoot out my mouth with surprising speed
no one has a doubt about my wants or my needs
i try not to cringe when my attempts backfire
i'm like a large bird keeping up on a wire.
there must be a middle, an even place to stay
where my thoughts can be mine, but not in the way
you'll give me a chance if you look past les mots
"je pense que je sais que le meillure est bon."

i've learned to rebound, to mean what i say
sometimes too much, but that's my price to pay
it went on too long
i've stopped and moved on
now i'm me without apology

show me your heart and i'll show you mine
it looks scarred, but it's just a small line.
the walls are trembling and quaking in fear
march round for three days, the end is soon near
if you ask me permission i'll kiss you for luck
there will be no guilt tripping, you cannot get stuck
just hold out your hand for my fingers to find
as you promise to ever and ever be mine.